bonjour brightside

sometimes when i feel like i’m falling apart, i think of you and reminisce about the happy old times. i wonder if you still remember me

hello i miss you. why are you so far away? why must you be in gloomy wintry london when i’m back for hols this december? whyyyyyy

if there is one thing i realised, it’s that my brother and i are immensely close despite our differences. ever since we were kids we would stay up late to talk till we both fell asleep, we would conspire against our parents and let each other in on secrets that we’d never tell anyone else. and then i left for australia, and now he’s left for london. i really miss him. this summer will be weird because there’d be no more late night conversations, no one to tell me silly stories till i keel over laughing…… sometimes i just feel happier when he’s around. ARGH. and i got frankst0n emergency dept for my ED rotation next year of all places………………….and i have none in alfred!!!!!!!!     WHYWHYWHYYYY

today i went for a jog listening to john mayer’s waiting on the world to change on loop, laid under the glorious sun in my backyard for an hour with a glass of iced juice, a popsicle and murtagh in tow, made myself a yummylicious dinner of baked chicken thigh and tuna salad, watched project runway… all of which i enjoyed very much except i was meant to study and the only thing i accomplished was reading one chapter of murtagh while suntanning. pathetic. i know. ok now i’m going to fix myself some home-made cocoa for a conducive study environment

today while trying to give my patient a vitamin B12 injection, i gave myself a needlestick injury. and a haematoma. i don’t like needlesssss

i always thought my weekly GP placements were toturous but on hindsight i realised that i don’t actually dislike it all that much, it seems like i’m always minimizing the good points and magnifying the negative aspects of the placement.

anyway, one of the reasons why it isn’t that bad is because my GP and i get along swimmingly. he is this 56 year old guy with a great sense of humour and sometimes when we don’t have patients, we have really great discussions about life and food and etc. sometimes we test drive iPhones and listen to bjork(?!) when we have patients. i really like it that he makes a real effort to teach me useful things and even gives me little projects to do every week. this week my homework was anaemia, based on a patient we saw who presented with pain in his calves and shortness on breath walking up the stairs. he was pretty overweight and my first thought was, it’s probably functional shortness of breath due to his lack of fitness. but well, my GP did more investigations and we found that he had really really low haemoglobin (ie. anaemia), as well as a low white cell count and platelet count…… interesting.

i think part of the reason why i like medicine is because of its complexities… not that i like being put in difficult situations, but i find that its when i’m faced with a puzzle i can’t necessarily solve at the first try, that i’m forced to think, to be dynamic, to be on my twiddly toes…. like house m.d. speaking of which, i just rekindled my love for the show although i wish they would stop using pophyria as the differential diagnosis for every episode.

rachel z “do we have time to go shopping?”

brad (her assistant) “no”

rachel z “i just bought three leopard coats this week. and a leopard cape too, what do you think?”

brad “you might need another one.”

hello bradley! can you be my BFF please.